A Little Bit More Than A Personal Jinx

Believe me,
I don't want to write another word for you.
But when I see your face, Nothing can replace -
The nervousness I feel.

Believe me,
I don't like this anymore than you do.
But something in my soul, Won't let me let you go -
Regardless of how much I need to.

And so it seems,
My one-sided feelings, are stronger than the truth.
I'm stuck here, all I want is you,
I can't move 'til you say 'I do'.

Believe me,
I don't want to spare another thought for you.
But when I hear you cry, something inside me -
Cries with empathy.

Believe me,
I wish there were something I could do.
But these feelings persist, and they won't be dismissed.
I guess it is what it is.

And so it seems,
My one-sided feelings, are stronger than the truth.
I'm stuck here, all I want is you,
I can't move 'til you say 'I do'.

I'm paralyzed, and it's all for you.
It's all for you.

Please, believe me,
All you'd have to do is change your mind.
Believe me,
All you'd have to do is change your heart.
Please, Believe me,
'Cause you're the only one
who can
Make
Me
Move.

by Joseph Youssef
December 23rd, 2009.

Fishing for Compliments

I don't know if you know this about me,
I'm a little weird.
I take to heart, everything you say -
So, When you speak;
you make or break my heart,
With every single word,
I know it sounds absurd,
I'm so insecure.

I need approval like plants need sunlight,
I need to be encouraged like the moon needs the night to shine,
So I can know that I exist;
I'm fishing for compliments.

I don't know if you know this about me,
But, I'm a nervous wreck.
I take to heart everything you say.
So, when you speak,
what you say plays on repeat,
I'll either smile, and feel complete
or sigh and feel defeat.
Its exactly like it seems,
I've got no self-esteem.

I need approval like plants need sunlight,
I need to be encouraged like the moon needs the night, to shine,
So I can know that I exist;
I'm fishing for compliments.

I need your sweet words like the earth needs the rain,
I need to fit in so, I'll never feel lonely again.
I've got no confidence so,
I'm fishing for compliments.

Someone once told me to fake it till you make it,
But, I never could quite make it
So, I guess that I'm just fake.
Someone once said "if you want happiness, create it"
But, I was never very good at making anything of myself.
If only I could be someone else -

Because, I need approval like plants need sunlight,
I need to be encouraged like the moon needs the night, to shine,
So I can know that I exist;
I'm fishing for compliments.

I need your sweet words like the earth needs the rain,
I need to fit in so I'll never feel lonely again.
I've got no confidence.
It's so sad it had to come to this.
but to feel like I exist
I have to fish for compliments.

By Joseph Youssef - December 2009

This is not Ideal

It doesnt make sense that, I was so upset to see you leave,
when you barely spoke two words to me.

It doesn't make sense because,
The friendship was so tense
and what I saw of your life
I didn't even like.

It must've been the appeal of what could've been.

Beacause, realistically speaking, darling you're just not for me
but, ideally we are so meant to be.
I'm in love with the ideal you.

It doesn't make sense, that I became a mess
for someone who never really fit.

It doesn't make sense that, at my own expense
I saw myself fall and let it happen,
for something that wasn't real,
for someone whos life
I didn't even like

It must've been your potential that swept me off my feet.

Beacause, realistically speaking darling you're just not for me
but, ideally we are so meant to be.
I'm in love with the ideal you

I've lost count of the amount of times I've seen us together while I sleep.
yeah, it would seem you're the girl of my dreams;
it would seem my mind is playing tricks on me.

Beacause, realistically speaking darling you're just not for me
but, ideally we are so meant to be.
I'm in love with the ideal you.

I'm still trying to clear my head,
I'm trying not to love but, hate you instead.
because getting over you is way overdue
you're just not ideal.

by Joseph Youssef
November 2009

I liked you better

It started off sweet,
you liked me and I liked you
but, Somewhere along the way,
you decided to discontinue what you felt-
if you felt anything for me
and you shut me out but, I clung on as desperate as can be.

Because, It was your hand that I desired,
but you said friendship was all you required,
and I can settle for friends if thats what you want us to be
but I've gotta say,
I've gotta tell you;
I liked you better when you liked me.

I tried, I tried so hard,
to make myself more appealing,
but somewhere along the way
you decided that you weren't feeling anything-
you never felt anything for me,
and you shut me out but, I clung on as desperate as can be.

Because, It was your hand that I desired,
but you said friendship was all you required,
and I can settle for friends if thats all you want us to be
but I've gotta say,
I've gotta tell you;
I liked you better when you liked me.

I can tell myself I'm over you,
if that is what you want me to do,
But don't you see things would be so easy,
if you'd just come to your senses and fall inlove with me.

I liked you better when you liked me.
I loved you better when you liked me.

By Joseph Youssef 2009

Silver Medals are my Forte..

Oh, you know me;
you know I'm always set out to achieve success.
Oh, you know me;
you know I try so hard to always beat the rest
but, I always get second and that makes me depressed.

Because I've always been the best at being second best.
I've always been the best at being second best.

Oh, you know me;
you know I love to be praised yeah, I love the attention.
Yeah, you know me;
you know I love to be favoured and I love to be mentioned
but, I always get second and it causes some tension.

'Cause I've always been the best at being second best.
I've always been the best at being second best.
Even though I've always wanted to be second to none -
Right now I'm second to one.
Maybe, I should give it a rest
and settle for second best.

Lately I've been getting the rough idea,
that you'll try so hard but life's not always fair,
it may not ever matter how much you care
and, that's a wee bit cliche but cliches are often true...

Maybe I should give it a rest
and, settle for second best.

'Cause I've always been the best at being second best.
I've always been the best at being second best.
Even though I've always wanted to be second to none -
Right now I'm second to one.

Maybe I should give it a
maybe I should give it a
maybe I should give it a rest.

Except, I cant seem to give it a rest
I don't want to be second best.

By Joseph Youssef 2009

Forlorn Freddy Frailson

My friend, you must be in denial,
You never seem to take a hint.
I know it might take a while but,
You should probably move on.

Sucker for punishment,
Get your hopes high,
Get them really, really high,
But it will never change a thing.

My friend you must be hearing whatever you like,
Because not once did I say "wait".
and Oh, I know, you think it's fate but,
You should probably move on.

Sucker for punishment,
Get your hopes high,
Get them really, really high,
Get them higher than the sky;
But it will never change a thing.

Because you'll never have my attention,
No you'll never have my attention.
You'll never have my attention,
Hurting you is not my intention.

Oh, Sucker for punishment,
Get your hopes high,
Get them really, really high,
Get them higher than the sky;
But it will never change a thing.

You're a sucker for punishment,
The forlorn, frail kind,
But you don't really mind,
You'll just keep on trying,
Even though you know you'll never win.

By Joseph Youssef 2009

You Gave Me Words

It's worth making note,
I wasn't always like this
But then you showed up and covered my eyes.
You said to keep them closed
Until you came back
Or, atleast that's what I heard.

You gave me words to hold onto with my heart
and words were always my favourite to hold.
how did you know?

Time flew by,
And I grew restless
Still waiting, just waiting for you to return.
Now and then you'd visit
to say hello
But I never saw you, I kept my eyes closed.

You gave me words to hold onto with my heart
How did you know words were my favourite to hold?
It's so absurd that I held onto anything
When I should've just let go
Have you let go?
Please don't let go.

One day you said "follow but, keep your eyes closed"
They said to say "no"
But you lead me on so well.

Now I'm a fool;
A nervous wreck
Because of the words I hold.

You gave me words to hold onto with my heart
How did you know you're my favourite to hold?
It's so absurd I still hold onto anything,
When I should just let go.

Because you let go.
Did you let go?
Should I let go?
I'll try let go.
I can't let go
Have you let go?
Please TELL me to let go.

You gave me words.
and I held on with my heart.

By Joseph Youssef 2009

the Complacency song

I don't like to brag but, I've got to admit that,
I've gotten pretty damn far.
I'm halfway there, and I'm happy here,
I've gotten pretty damn far.
Now all I need is the other half;
The rest of what I had planned.

Now all I need is the rest of my life.

I dont like complacency,
But it has got the best of me,
It's time to change the scenery
It's time to change the scenery.

I don't like to brag but, I've got to admit that,
I've gotten pretty damn far.
The glass is half full, I've almost got it all.
Yeah, I've gotten pretty damn far.
Now all I need is the other half;
The rest of what I had planned.

Now all I need is the rest of my life.

I dont like complacency,
But it has got the best of me,
It's time to change the scenery
It's time to change the scenery.

I've gotten pretty damn far,
I've gotten pretty damn far.
but The novelty has worn off.

I dont like complacency,
But it has got the best of me,
It's time to change the scenery
It's time to change the scenery

I don't like emergency,
But this seems like it has to be.
It's time to change the scenery,
It's time to change the scenery.

Because the novelty has worn off.

By Joseph Youssef 2009

The Optimism

Oh, it's a common belief;
That the sun always shines if you want it to,
And theres power in the words you speak.
So if I say it right, it'll all be just fine.

I'll sit back and watch it all -
Sit back and watch it fall into place.

I'm gonna shut my eyes and let the optimism work things out for me.
I need to say out loud, some affirming words -
So I can be assured that I'll get where I want to be.

Oh, it's a common belief,
That the sun always shines if u want it to,
believe this, and you will feel complete.
Nothing else is required,
You just have to decide to,

Sit back and watch it all -
Sit back and watch it fall into place.

I'm gonna shut my eyes and let the optimism work things out for me.
I need to say out loud, some affirming words -
So I can be assured that I'll get where I want to be.

Call me naiive
But the optimism works for me.
Call me naiive.
Because that's exactly what I am.

I'm gonna shut my eyes and let the optimism work things out for me.
I need to say out loud, some affirming words -
So I can be assured that I'll get where I want to be.

Oh it's a common mistake to think;
That the sun always shines if you want it to.
I know because, I tried to relate
But the heat always made me restless.




By Joseph Youssef 2009

I'm Indecisive, I've Decided.

This just doesn't weigh up,
I'm on and off like a light switch,
and I keep changing my mind; keep changing my heart with every beat.

This just doesn't weigh up,
I'm up and down like a see-saw,
and I keep changing my mind; keep changing the way I speak.

I think, I thought, I'm thinking
I'm just not sure,
Where I stand in all of this.

Am I hot?
Am I cold?
No, I'm somewhere in between.
Do I love, or Do I hate you?
It's usually one of these extremes.
I'm indecisive; I've decided,
Indecisive; I've decided
But I just don't want to fake it.

This just doesn't weigh up,
I'm running around in so many circles;
and I keep changing my mind; keep changing what it is I see.

This just doesn't weigh up,
I'm back and forth like a rocking chair,
and I keep changing my mind; keep changing what I believe.

I think, I thought, I'm thinking,
I'm just not sure,
Where I stand in all of this.

Am I hot?
Am I cold?
No, I'm somewhere in between.
Do I love, or Do I hate you?
It's usually one of these extremes.
I'm indecisive; I've decided,
Indecisive; I've decided
But I just don't want to fake it.

When I'm finally sure where I'm supposed to be,
I'll let you know, I'll let you know,
Because I'm amazed at how patient you've been with me,
But I just don't know where I stand in all of this.

Am I hot?
Am I cold?
No, I'm somewhere in between.
Do I love, or Do I hate you?
It's usually one of these extremes.
I'm indecisive; I've decided,
Indecisive; I've decided
But I just don't want to fake it.

Joseph Youssef - 2008

The Wrong Right Idea

I'm living with a mask on
I'm trying to take it off
but I like the way it fits
i like the way it fits.

I'm living with the light off
I'm trying to switch it on
but I like how I can hide,
I like how I can hide

But, just for a minute
I'm willing to admit it
How I'm living is not okay.
The way I'm living iss not okay.
And as you can see
This just isn't me
It was never me.

Oh, How did I get here ?
I really am upset here
Never wanted to belong here
I think I got the wrong idea.

It's not a pretty sight here
I don't feel very right here
Never wanted to end up here
I think i got the wrong idea.

I love it but I hate it
Oh, I love it but I hate it.
I love it but I hate it
Oh, I love it but I hate it

How did I get here ?
I really am upset here
Never wanted to belong here
I think I got the wrong idea.

It's not a pretty sight here
I don't feel very right here
Never wanted to end up here
I think i got the wrong idea.

By Joseph Youssef 2008

I'm a lil' bit of Everyone

the truth is i need something else
because what i have wont suffice
in this new frame of mind
where the old pictures wont fit
because none of me ever existed
thoughts and expectations of the world were where i lost myself
and became what the world wanted
just another voice in this chorus

so watch me run as fast as i can
in the opposite direction
away from you

its so hard to walk a straight line
when your only motivation is everyone else
you've been delbt a bad hand
and you fold because its not worth it
because all these rules are too hard to follow
there are too many to remember so
you fake it till u make urself
just what the world wanted
another actor in the play

so watch me run as fast as i can
in the opposite direction
away from you

I'm a little bit of everyone,
I need to be myself for once

so watch me run as fast as i can
in the opposite direction
away from you

watch me run as fast as i can
in the opposite direction
away from you

and towards me.

By Joseph Youssef 2007

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It's as if I never knew better
Because I know but, I've lost the will to care.
The Faith is still there,
But if faith without works is dead,
I guess that's gone too.

I've been desensitised to guilt
I've jumped right into the screams and smoke machines.
Everything's loud and hazy,
But I knew it would be when I went in.

I can't remember the last time you spoke to me,
I can't remember what you sound like,
I remember you spoke in poems,
I can't remember what they meant.

It's as if i never knew better
Because I know but, I've lost the will to care.
The Purity is there,
But if sin starts through thought,
I guess that's gone too.

I've been desensitised to guilt
I've jumped right into the screams and smoke machines.
Everything's loud and hazy,
But I knew it would be when I went in.

I can't remember the last time you spoke to me,
I can't remember what you sound like,
I remember you spoke in poems,
I can't remember what they meant.

I can't remember the last time you spoke to me,
I can't remember what you sound like,
I remember you spoke in scripture
I can't remember what it meant.

By Joseph Youssef 2008

I used to write your name in a heart all over my school books

I dreamt about you the other day
I dreamt about the day i met you, and the way you looked at me.
you were so shy, it was so beautiful, and it was so real.

and i was me
and you were you
and we were use inlove
and nothing else mattered
because noone else existed
and i was me
and you were you
and we were us inlove.

I thought about us the other day
i thought about who we were together and the way we both just fit
we were so close, it was so beautiful, it was so real

and i was him
and she was you
and we were us inlove
and nothing else mattered
because noone else existed
i was him
and she was you
and we were us inlove.

Do you remember us -
so immersed in the things we never said
and the feelings we never showed
Do you remember us ?

I was me
and she was you
and we were us inlove and
Nothing else mattered
because noone else existed
and i was me
and you were you
and we were us inlove.

we were us inlove

By Joseph Youssef 2008

Ethan Paul Smith

Feeling so numb from your absence,
just as quickly as u were here, you were gone again
without a chance and with all the pain in the world
but at least now you can rest.

No more tears, rest your eyes
no more hurting to endure
No more pain, No more pain to fight
Baby, breathe easy now, Breathe easy now.

Feeling so cold without you here,
You only lived for such a short time
without a chance and with all the pain in the world
but at least now you can rest.

No more tears, rest your eyes
no more hurting to endure
No more pain, No more pain to fight
Baby, breathe easy now, Breathe easy now.

though you're gone, you'll never be forgotten
we couldn't ever forget you.
baby now close your eyes and rest, rest easy now
breathe easy now.

No more tears, rest your eyes
no more hurting to endure
No more pain, No more pain to fight
Baby, breathe easy now, Breathe easy now.

Breathe easy now.

It's the smallest lives, that leave the biggest holes. Love u kid.

By Joseph Youssef 2007

Make Me, Me.

I'm standing here before you
and all I am I give to you
take this life and make it something
without you I am nothing.

make me real make me someone
make me who I'm meant to be
make me me
make me real make me yours
make me all that I can be
make me me

I'm standing here before you
and all I have I give to you
take this prayer the words I've spoken
without you I am broken

make me real make me someone
make me who I'm meant to be
make me me
make me real make me yours
make me all that I can be
make me me

its by your grace that I am even here
its by your grace that I'm alive
you gave it all let me give something back to you
you gave it all let me give something back.

I'm standing here before you and all i am i give to you.

by Joseph Youssef 2006

I am not able.

Identity is something I've struggled to find
If you take away the world - there's nothing left.
I look at life and I might aswell have been blind
For a life without vision is one I've lived.

Give me a name to be defined.

The truth is something I've struggled to find.
If you take away the words, there's nothing left.
I look at life and might aswell have lied,
Because I've never had a truth to live life by.

Give me a name to be defined,
Give me a truth to live life by,
Give a face to put to my name,
Give me a faith so I won't go insane.

Because I am not able, I am not able.
without you.

Give me a name to be defined
Give me a truth to live life by
Give a face to put to my name
Give me a faith so I won't go insane.
Give me ambition to reach my goals
Give me salvation to save my soul
Make me an offer I can't refuse
Because without you.
without you..

I am not able, I am not able
Without you.

By Joseph Youssef 2008